Day 23 - Five people you are annoyed with right now (no names)
I don’t like being annoyed with people…usually I try not to let anyone bring me down…but if I really had to say people that were kind of pushing my buttons…
You always say you know things, but sometimes you really don’t. Don’t put other people down just because they don’t match up to what you thought you knew. It’s just really rude sometimes. I really do love you, but when you do that it’s just mean.
It seems recently like you feel you’re better than me, and that makes me sad because I’ve never acted that way around you. It’s nice to see you having all these great things happening to you, but at the same time you don’t have to get way in over your head. Be humble about it; I’m proud of you, but don’t go around flaunting it in everyone’s face.
You always bother me, and it’s not only the constant feed spam. Don’t act like that, you’re just embarrassing yourself. You’re so much better than you make yourself look, just be cool about it and don’t go around making yourself an easy target. You’re just degrading yourself.
And that’s it. Just three people that are kind of bothering me, and it’s not so much that they’re bothering me directly but that I just don’t like the way they’re presenting themselves. They’re all beautiful people, but it’s like please don’t be like that. It just takes away from what amazing people you are.
Everyone’s stressing out about it and getting all annoyed and sad about the thought of college. But seriously? I just don’t care anymore. I go wherever I’m supposed to go. You can’t really do anything else except fill out the application to the best of your ability. Stop freaking out about things like college. It’s NOT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. Sure, it matters what you decide to DO with your life, but college isn’t really going to help you. More than half of the UC Berkeley graduating class is going to be unemployed. IT ALL COMES DOWN TO CONNECTIONS. The people you meet, the chances that happen, the places you go. THEY are what really matters. So sixty years from now are you going to look back fondly on the days of your youth? Not if you’re freaking out and stressing and basically wasting four years of your life…
Everyone. There’s not one single person that I can think of that wouldn’t affect me in some way if they just simply disappeared. I love everyone too much. I’m totally and completely serious. I can’t live without any of you guys. I’m serious.
I feel like I’m just living in a dream, stuck in my own bubble. I feel like I’m not really awake, that I could just go on sleeping through life and pretending that nothing I’m doing right now will affect me later on. I feel like I just don’t care anymore.
Day 20 - Five people you are happy with right now (no names)
You always make me smile. You don’t do anything specifically, but when I’m with you I know I’m in good company. You always remind me of the friends I’m thankful for, and you never fail to make me smile at the end of the day. I’m so glad we’re so close again this year, it’s honestly been the highlight so far.
You know me so well. Inside and out. Even after all this time, you know exactly what I’m feeling, even if I completely ignore you. I get a hug when I need one the most, I get a pat on the back to keep me going, I get a harsh word here and there. You know exactly what to say all the time. And that just makes me feel so guilty for pretending you don’t exist sometimes. Makes me wonder what would have happened if we had been friends for all of these years instead of just forgetting about it when it barely even started.
You’re always there for me. Even when I’m being super annoying or racist or not even that funny. You just are always by my side 100%. We usually disagree on things but you’re the one who’s opinion means the most to me. I really don’t know what I’d do without you. We’ve grown so much throughout our friendship, and I’ll know we’ll always be friends forever. You’ll be invited to my wedding for sure. Even if we never talk after this, which I highly doubt. Life would definitely not be the same without you.
You just care. You care so much and it’s nice to know that I have you by my side, just there for me. You care about me more than I care for myself. And that’s so nice. You have no idea. We don’t even see each other every day. It’s more like a twice a year thing. But you’ve been there for me all the time and always drop by and say a nice word or two. And it’s just really sweet. It’s nice.
You’re someone I always count on. Sometimes it’s a little too much. But you’ve been there always. It’s almost an eerie routine, but you’ve never failed to complete your job and mine. I really don’t know what I would have done without you these past four years, and I really just take you for granted. Thank you.