Last day of CYS. Sad, yet happy. Very bittersweet. And for once I was the one leaving; not the one being left. And it felt good. Sister’s violin recital. Made a few mistakes but overall it sounded really good. Better than I would have expected, and I mean that in a good way. This summer holds a lot of promise, but I feel that maybe I should just study for the SAT’s. I can’t decided if I’m doing the right thing. I mean, I am serving God, but that’s only for two weeks. And the rest, I’m basically serving myself and for some reason it just doesn’t feel right.
Last night’s talk with E till 2am was amazing. I think that was the first time we talked so late and so long. But then again I may be wrong. It was nice to spill everything to a person and not on here all the time.
Still working on 2nd period’s goodbye presents. B’s is the hardest one of all. I mean, sometimes it frustrates me because I feel like I know people, but then I really don’t. And it’s hard for me to realize that I may be opening up way more than the other person is. Just like N&H. And it just pisses me off. That’s why it just hasn’t been the three of us in a while.
I’ve been having dreams, and they aren’t good dreams. Most of them are about you. And sometimes I’d rather still be asleep, because at least you’d still be there for me. I’d just like you to answer this question; when did you get too good for me? and when did you forget about those promises you made? Because they keep piling up, and at this rate your going to have a lot to answer to when its too late.